I feel like such a bad person...

Well, this have been "gnawing" on me for a long while...
I just need to get it out, and here seems like a good place.

Once I had two adorable guinea pigs, two boys, that the woman in the pet store told me grew up with eachother.
It worked out good between them, altough they had small "fights" with eachother sometimes, but they never hurt the other.
I loved them both to bits, Sinbad the tricolored abyssinian, black, white and a little brown, was not even a year old when we baught them.
He was around the age when they are allowed to leave the mother.
Kane, a tricolored ridgeback, brown/tan, black and white, was maybe 1-2 months older.
We had them for about a year, before something terrible happened.
I was going to go to school, and they started to fight, and this time it wouldn't be their ordinary "nobody gets hurt" fight.
So I was going to separate them, good thing it was a "two story" cage.
So I put my hands infront of them, and gently pushed them away from the other.
Sinbad, who saw me as his mother (why, I don't know) backed away, but he did some sort of sound while he did.
The sound must have been somewhat provocatively, because Kane bit my finger.
It took some seconds before I reacted, when I pulled out my hands of the cage, Kane was still hanging from my finger.
A guinea pig that weighs about 1,1kg hanging by the skin on your finger... not pleasant.
I don't know why, but I quickly threw my hand up then down with pretty much force, and he lost his grip and fell onto the floor.
I'll never forget his scream, it was like a hundred times worse then a knife on a plate.
I didn't have to go to school, because we went to the vet right away.
She said that he was alright, and probably just hit his knee a little.
We got some anodyne (don't know if that's right), but he didn't survive the night...

I know that most people say that it was a pure reflex I did, but I don't think that's it.
I think that I did it somewhat on purpose.
It really does feel like it's my fault that he died, that I murdered him...
I feel like such a terrible person...

Sinbad didn't have to be alone for long.
We had to put him down the week after Kane died, because he had some sort of inbred scab(mange).

I miss them both so much...
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S.K. Books

I don't know why, but I've wanted to write a list with the Stephen King books that I have.
So I know which ones I have to buy.
I'll write in both Swedish and English :p
Oh yeah, it'll include novells and books he wrote under the name Richard Bachman.
I want more!!! D:

Carrie (Carrie)
Salem's Lot (Staden som försvann)
The Shining (Varsel)
The Stand (Pestens tid)
The Dead Zone (Död zon)
Pet Sematary (Jurtjyrkogården)
It (Det)
The Eyes of the Dragon (Drakens ögon)
Needful Things (Köplust)
Dolores Claiborne (Dolores Claiborne)
Hearts in Atlantis (Hjärtan i Atlantis)
Cell (Signal)
Blaze (Blaze)
The Mist (Dimman)
Skeleton Crew (Den förskräckliga apan)(Novell collection)
The Dark Tower 1: The Gunslinger
The Dark Tower 2: The Drawing of the Three
The Dark Tower 3: The Waste Lands
The Dark Tower 4: Wizard and Glass
The Dark Tower 5: Wolves of the Calla
Danse Macabre (Dödsdansen)
Thinner (Förbannelse)
Misery (Lida)
The Dark Half (Stark)
Christine (Christine)
Tommyknockers (Knackarna)

Writer's Block: Conversation starters

Are there any subjects you either embrace or totally avoid talking about when you meet someone new?

Well there's not many things that I'll avoid talking about with new persons, but the main one is talking about the family, because I don't like to talk about my family, since I really don't like to talk or hear about fathers. It's pretty wierd though.

Today I almost did a stupid thing

A very, very, very, very stupid thing. I had to do a test today. In sciences class, it was about atoms and such. I didn't really think I would make it, so I decided that if I didn't know the answers, I would cheat. I almost did, but luckily for me I knew most of the answers so I didn't.

Stupid scanner

My scanner hates me, that's for sure.
Just because I have lots of pictures to scan, it doesn't want to work.
That scanner is so evil.
I hope learned some manners from the guys that are fixing it.
So I'll finally get to scan my pictures, tomorrow :D